The Year of Truth

This is a late-night thought on the last day of 2020. This night is my very first time in the past 30 years passing the new year only with myself and the Coldplay playlist. It’s a mixed feeling, I thought it will not affect me but turns out here I am, writing this with tons of thought.

I am trying to memorize the moment of every new year from the past, and thanks god I always had a happy moment all the way, but that was the thing that makes me feel shallow this time. I feel like I just let the day pass as if it was just another happy day and will happen again.

“ How come I didn’t embrace, feel, absorb, and memorize all those moments. Why it happens so fast?”

and at this point, I realize that this is the truth of life. The truth I should be appreciated because life is a blink of an eye.

Thanks to 2020, because without any of this uncertainty I will never embrace and memorize every moment in my life.

Thanks to 2020 for making me stop and feel what is missing in my life.

Thanks to 2020 for slowing me down and have my moment with my thought.

Thanks to 2020 for making me appreciate myself more.

Thanks to 2020 for giving me a chance to think about the value of family.

Thanks to 2020 for letting go of my ego.

Thanks to 2020 for fixing my priority in my life.

Thanks to 2020 for giving me this night alone and found who am I.

Thanks to 2020 for showing me the true meaning of time.

Thanks to 2020 for turning me into the true me.

And Thanks to Allah SWT for giving me this wonderful life.

Alhamdulillah.